17 Weeks Post-Op

I haven't written in a while and I have no excuses.  This could end up being a lengthy post.

I have lost 58 pounds since surgery and 78 since pre-op liquid diet.

We were in Cape Cod, MA from Tuesday until Saturday and I didn't have a scale the entire time.  This was very strange for me.  I've weighed myself every single morning for the past year with very few exceptions so to have no scale and be really actively working on losing was strange.  Happy to say that even though I was in a bit of a stall when we left, I managed to lose almost 6 pounds.  I'll take that!!  I continued to log everything I ate in Myfitnesspal.  We walked a ton.  Kept up on my water.  I stocked the rental cottage with Greek yogurt, string cheese, some deli ham, and chose my meals wisely.  Even got to enjoy some lobster.  Pretty cool indeed.

The flights to the Cape were interesting as well.  Not only do I not need a seatbelt extender, but I have room in an airplane seat to actually cross my legs!!  I could also wrestle with my 2 and 4 year old to get them belted in without having to remove my own safety belt.  I could also carry the carry-on, my purse AND a child at the same time without being winded at all.  I could walk up the aisle of the plane and not feel like my hips were hitting people in the face.  I put my tray table down and it actually came all the way down.  All of these are huge wins.  I love to travel and the absolute uncomfortable nature of being a large person in an airplane hindered that.  SO very happy to report that this is no longer an issue!!!!

Also, my collarbone is now visible.  It's much more pronounced on the right than the left but it's there.  I know...it's another one of those things that probably a normal-sized person doesn't think twice about but an overweight person can obsess over.  My neck and decollete area is starting to look like a thin person's.  And it's a big deal to me.

I can also wear clothes that are not in plus size.  Phil bought me a hoodie on vacation and it's a normal Large.  Not multiple 'X'.  Also, I bought a yoga top a month or so ago that was adorable and on sale thinking "someday" and someday came yesterday.  It didn't look perfect but it fit fine.

I'm continually amazed that this is working.

I do continue to miss food.  I don't deprive myself...I log everything, even if I'm not proud of a choice...but I do miss food.  We grilled steaks last night - they were amazing.  I took two bites and I couldn't eat anymore.  Not for any other reason.  It tasted amazing.  The texture was fine.  The moisture was there.  It was cooked a perfect medium rare.  I just couldn't get more than a couple bites to feel good down there and that's enough to make me stop.  It's a good thing - it means I'm following the rules and listening to my body, which will help me in the long run.  But sitting there with my family who were all raving at how awesome the steak was and not being able to enjoy it was a bummer.  There was left overs.  I'll try again tonight.

I think my next 'treat' to myself is going to be a new TV for my workout area in our basement.  I have an elliptical and a treadmill but the TV I use while working out has seen better days.  Now that flat screens have come down so much in price, it'd be nice to have another incentive to workout with.  We'll see.

That's all I got - still working at it...and it's still working...and I'm still in awe.