I'm really, REALLY thankful for this journey. I truely believe I never would have been able to be a successful dieter without my RNY surgery. I feel extremely lucky to have had a positive experience with the entire process start to now. So please take this with a grain of salt - it's all good stuff...
All my clothes fit weird.
The butt is saggy. They're all too long. If I go down a size, the waist is tighter and I get a muffin top. Not a look I particularly enjoy. I know that it's a matter of weeks before I'm down another 10 pounds and the next size down isn't that far away but man, I'm tired of looking like a frump!!
I'm also cold much of the time and I know that's only going to get worse as the fat on my body comes off. I'm willing to deal with this one.
I want to buy cute clothes...I'm dying to, actually...but not knowing where I'll end up size-wise, I'm reluctant to purchase anything too nice or thing about things too long term.
All that being said - man, it's fun to have a long lean neck. It's so nice that folks are actually noticing that I'm smaller than I was. Church is where I get the majority of the compliments from folks that don't see me daily - and that's really fun. Supportive and loving comments about how great I look is a great reminder that yes, I am doing something good for myself and yes, it's paying off.
I am also falling more and more in love with working out. I wish my life had the amount of time I would need to workout to my hearts content but right now, I get about an hour 4-5 times a week. I am stronger. I am faster. It's not that hard anymore - it's just enjoyable. It feels GOOD to sweat!!
Life sure has changed in the past 4 months. I'm so so SO happy to be on this side of the change!!!
Tuesday, October 27, 2015
Monday, October 19, 2015
17 Weeks Post-Op
I haven't written in a while and I have no excuses. This could end up being a lengthy post.
I have lost 58 pounds since surgery and 78 since pre-op liquid diet.
We were in Cape Cod, MA from Tuesday until Saturday and I didn't have a scale the entire time. This was very strange for me. I've weighed myself every single morning for the past year with very few exceptions so to have no scale and be really actively working on losing was strange. Happy to say that even though I was in a bit of a stall when we left, I managed to lose almost 6 pounds. I'll take that!! I continued to log everything I ate in Myfitnesspal. We walked a ton. Kept up on my water. I stocked the rental cottage with Greek yogurt, string cheese, some deli ham, and chose my meals wisely. Even got to enjoy some lobster. Pretty cool indeed.
The flights to the Cape were interesting as well. Not only do I not need a seatbelt extender, but I have room in an airplane seat to actually cross my legs!! I could also wrestle with my 2 and 4 year old to get them belted in without having to remove my own safety belt. I could also carry the carry-on, my purse AND a child at the same time without being winded at all. I could walk up the aisle of the plane and not feel like my hips were hitting people in the face. I put my tray table down and it actually came all the way down. All of these are huge wins. I love to travel and the absolute uncomfortable nature of being a large person in an airplane hindered that. SO very happy to report that this is no longer an issue!!!!
Also, my collarbone is now visible. It's much more pronounced on the right than the left but it's there. I know...it's another one of those things that probably a normal-sized person doesn't think twice about but an overweight person can obsess over. My neck and decollete area is starting to look like a thin person's. And it's a big deal to me.
I can also wear clothes that are not in plus size. Phil bought me a hoodie on vacation and it's a normal Large. Not multiple 'X'. Also, I bought a yoga top a month or so ago that was adorable and on sale thinking "someday" and someday came yesterday. It didn't look perfect but it fit fine.
I'm continually amazed that this is working.
I do continue to miss food. I don't deprive myself...I log everything, even if I'm not proud of a choice...but I do miss food. We grilled steaks last night - they were amazing. I took two bites and I couldn't eat anymore. Not for any other reason. It tasted amazing. The texture was fine. The moisture was there. It was cooked a perfect medium rare. I just couldn't get more than a couple bites to feel good down there and that's enough to make me stop. It's a good thing - it means I'm following the rules and listening to my body, which will help me in the long run. But sitting there with my family who were all raving at how awesome the steak was and not being able to enjoy it was a bummer. There was left overs. I'll try again tonight.
I think my next 'treat' to myself is going to be a new TV for my workout area in our basement. I have an elliptical and a treadmill but the TV I use while working out has seen better days. Now that flat screens have come down so much in price, it'd be nice to have another incentive to workout with. We'll see.
That's all I got - still working at it...and it's still working...and I'm still in awe.
I have lost 58 pounds since surgery and 78 since pre-op liquid diet.
We were in Cape Cod, MA from Tuesday until Saturday and I didn't have a scale the entire time. This was very strange for me. I've weighed myself every single morning for the past year with very few exceptions so to have no scale and be really actively working on losing was strange. Happy to say that even though I was in a bit of a stall when we left, I managed to lose almost 6 pounds. I'll take that!! I continued to log everything I ate in Myfitnesspal. We walked a ton. Kept up on my water. I stocked the rental cottage with Greek yogurt, string cheese, some deli ham, and chose my meals wisely. Even got to enjoy some lobster. Pretty cool indeed.
The flights to the Cape were interesting as well. Not only do I not need a seatbelt extender, but I have room in an airplane seat to actually cross my legs!! I could also wrestle with my 2 and 4 year old to get them belted in without having to remove my own safety belt. I could also carry the carry-on, my purse AND a child at the same time without being winded at all. I could walk up the aisle of the plane and not feel like my hips were hitting people in the face. I put my tray table down and it actually came all the way down. All of these are huge wins. I love to travel and the absolute uncomfortable nature of being a large person in an airplane hindered that. SO very happy to report that this is no longer an issue!!!!
Also, my collarbone is now visible. It's much more pronounced on the right than the left but it's there. I know...it's another one of those things that probably a normal-sized person doesn't think twice about but an overweight person can obsess over. My neck and decollete area is starting to look like a thin person's. And it's a big deal to me.
I can also wear clothes that are not in plus size. Phil bought me a hoodie on vacation and it's a normal Large. Not multiple 'X'. Also, I bought a yoga top a month or so ago that was adorable and on sale thinking "someday" and someday came yesterday. It didn't look perfect but it fit fine.
I'm continually amazed that this is working.
I do continue to miss food. I don't deprive myself...I log everything, even if I'm not proud of a choice...but I do miss food. We grilled steaks last night - they were amazing. I took two bites and I couldn't eat anymore. Not for any other reason. It tasted amazing. The texture was fine. The moisture was there. It was cooked a perfect medium rare. I just couldn't get more than a couple bites to feel good down there and that's enough to make me stop. It's a good thing - it means I'm following the rules and listening to my body, which will help me in the long run. But sitting there with my family who were all raving at how awesome the steak was and not being able to enjoy it was a bummer. There was left overs. I'll try again tonight.
I think my next 'treat' to myself is going to be a new TV for my workout area in our basement. I have an elliptical and a treadmill but the TV I use while working out has seen better days. Now that flat screens have come down so much in price, it'd be nice to have another incentive to workout with. We'll see.
That's all I got - still working at it...and it's still working...and I'm still in awe.
Tuesday, October 6, 2015
14 Weeks Post-Op
I skipped a post last week because really, there's not much to write about.
I'm so happy. I'm so happy to be on this side of the journey. I'm so happy to be experiencing success. I'm so happy to feel proud of myself.
I am so thankful that I have experienced very little if any side effects. Yes, I am losing hair now but I have so much, it's not a problem. I've been so lucky. I have found my groove...and it feels good.
I actually miss exercising when I haven't done it in more than 48 hours. I love that. I love the feeling after a good workout.
We're flying out to Cape Cod next week...and I'm actually curious how an airline seat will feel. 70 pounds ago, it wasn't fun to fly. I actually bought a seatbelt extender to carry with me on flights because I was too humiliated and mortified to ask the flight attendant for one. I don't think I'll need it now. THANK GOD.
I hover around 450 calories per day. It sounds low but really, it's about perfect. I can count on a pound of weight loss if I stay around that number without exercise. If I fit a workout in, I can stretch the calories to 600 or so and still achieve a pound per day. This also depends on how much water I've had, what time of the month it is and if I've had too much salt...but for the most part, I'm losing a pound per day. So exciting.
I wore some pants yesterday that fit great. The waist was comfortable, the butt didn't sag. They were a little gem I found when I cleaned out my closet a few weeks ago. All day long I thought I thought I had on a size 22 - which is still a win because I was a tight 24 pre-op. It wasn't until I changed out of my work clothes and into my workout clothes yesterday evening that I saw they were actually a 20. Again, so happy. That means another round of closet clean out could happen because I just kept all my 22's and now I may be too small for them. Such an amazing feeling.
So there ya go. Life is good. I'm winning the weight loss battle. I never thought I'd be able to say that...and I 110% credit the success to the surgery. I never would have been able to succeed without it.
I'm so happy. I'm so happy to be on this side of the journey. I'm so happy to be experiencing success. I'm so happy to feel proud of myself.
I am so thankful that I have experienced very little if any side effects. Yes, I am losing hair now but I have so much, it's not a problem. I've been so lucky. I have found my groove...and it feels good.
I actually miss exercising when I haven't done it in more than 48 hours. I love that. I love the feeling after a good workout.
We're flying out to Cape Cod next week...and I'm actually curious how an airline seat will feel. 70 pounds ago, it wasn't fun to fly. I actually bought a seatbelt extender to carry with me on flights because I was too humiliated and mortified to ask the flight attendant for one. I don't think I'll need it now. THANK GOD.
I hover around 450 calories per day. It sounds low but really, it's about perfect. I can count on a pound of weight loss if I stay around that number without exercise. If I fit a workout in, I can stretch the calories to 600 or so and still achieve a pound per day. This also depends on how much water I've had, what time of the month it is and if I've had too much salt...but for the most part, I'm losing a pound per day. So exciting.
I wore some pants yesterday that fit great. The waist was comfortable, the butt didn't sag. They were a little gem I found when I cleaned out my closet a few weeks ago. All day long I thought I thought I had on a size 22 - which is still a win because I was a tight 24 pre-op. It wasn't until I changed out of my work clothes and into my workout clothes yesterday evening that I saw they were actually a 20. Again, so happy. That means another round of closet clean out could happen because I just kept all my 22's and now I may be too small for them. Such an amazing feeling.
So there ya go. Life is good. I'm winning the weight loss battle. I never thought I'd be able to say that...and I 110% credit the success to the surgery. I never would have been able to succeed without it.
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